And Night Fell

[04.19.00] » by Nightsong

My name is still Jowy

That is all I have been left

Everything else has become part of my web

The deception I created to save the world

Save the world?

Ha!

I cannot even save my friends

As I proved when I let her die

I LOVED her

My best friend’s big sister

And I loved her…

I never told her

I don’t think she even suspected

And I’m sure she couldn’t have loved me

Not with all the darkness I allowed in my life

All signified by this accursed rune on my hand!

The Black sword…

It truly is an image of destruction

For it’s killing me even now

Even as I sit and wait for my old friend

Wait for him to come and kill me

He has to

He must

I’m evil

I’m evil

Aren’t I?

After all, they say the road to Hell is paved with good intentions

And believe me, I had nothing but

I thought I could end a senseless war

I thought I could save Nanami, and everyone else!

But ultimately, my actions ended in their deaths.

And now, I’m nothing more than a traitor to my friends

A traitor to my kingdom, for I ran from it

A traitor to Nanami, who I killed

Not with my own hands, but it WAS my fault!

I am a traitor to everything.

A traitor to all I once held dear

And I am a coward.

I was too scared to let my wife know that I cared for her too

I simply sent her away, letting her think it was convenience

Ha!

Just because I loved another doesn’t mean I didn’t love her too!

But now I’m trying to explain my motives to myself again

Once again

I am making excuses.

No more.

No no more.

Come, Hero of the Rebels.

Former friend.

Come, and take my head.

I will make it easy for you.

After all, what are friends for?