The Premier of Vane

[04.08.00] » by Nightsong

A poem by Nightsong

Based on Lunar: SSSC.

I had everything

Everything I could have desired

Didn't I?

I was respected and loved

And even feared, by some.

I had power beyond human comprehension

I was the greatest mage that the world had ever seen

But still, I was not satisfied.

I always hungered for just a bit more

Disguising my lust for power

Under excuses of wishes

Of wishes for order

Of wishes to help people live their lives

This was not the case.

In reality, I didn't care about the people

As I proved as I destroyed the land

Pulled the life energy of the planet into myself

Even while I ranted about 'order'

It seems I had convinced myself

Of those many deceptions

And those tangled webs were my undoing

For, without knowing what I was truly doing

I could never, ever succeed.

But why did I try to?

I already had everything.

Everything anyone else could have desired.

I was the Premier of the magical city

The floating guild.

Vane...

And now, I can never go back.

I must go forever forward.

I must continue to try to destroy

In a new world, in a new life

But, if I could

I

Would simply

Go back.

Why did I lock the door behind me?

Make it impossible to turn around?

Once I started down my path of darkness

Why did I -

Why... why?

And now, I am left in the darkness

I've realized my dream of immortality

But it turns out that dream was a twisted nightmare

And now I wish that I could die.

But I shall not die

Oh no.

The larger part of me cannot allow it.

The part of me that still believes

That this power can bring me happiness

But here

Deep down

Deep within my subconscious

I can know

I can know my foolishness is real
And my dreams are just that -

Foolish fantasies.